So I am doing yoga. .ok I am doing a 30 day challenge with YouTube. Yoga with Adriene. I am on the 4th day.
I met a friend and started a conversation about long distance bike riding. I haven’t done any yet. Lol
I need to be drawing and painting more. My self motivation isn’t the greatest.
I plan big with no follow through.
It’s been 2 and a half months sense I’ve had sex and I am starting to go crazy. God do I just want to fuck. But I am scared. I don’t trust anyone and I have been tested and am clean. But I’ve heard about std too much recently to let anyone near me. Plus I know my heart will sway. And I don’t want my walls to come down. I don’t want to loose myself once more to anyone.
Shit I even researched dental dams and that shit looks like it takes all the fun out of a great time. Guess I’ll be selibat for awhile. God help me. Lol
I can’t be around anyone without questioning their intentions. And if I know they want me, all my guards are up and my words are saying no. I can’t help it of my body and eyes are begging please.