I don’t know what I am doing. I don’t know if I am going forwards or backwards. I think I am just at a stand still. To afraid to jump. I look back and know the pain and I look forward and see joy I could experience. But the experience I have tells me it’s only temporary. And I am afraid to say it’s not worth the pain. This stability, what little I have, isn’t worth losing.
I know I get people’s hopes up, but I am forwarding about running. Just not sure how ya run away from someone without any red flags.