I woke up with a headache and my body hurts at an unbelievable level today. I am emotionally numb. Granted I know I am premenstrual so I know why I am cranky but I really don’t want anything to do with anyone. I just want to go home. I just want to do nothing curl up in my bed. Smoke a bowl, paint a canvas. Anything but be here. I am alone and I want it that way. I never know what people are thinking or saying about me and sometimes it drives me mad. Completely mad. I trust no one. No one cares about how I am doing. No one calls to see what’s going on in my life. Screw everyone.